Brief Synopsis

I will begin this blog by providing a brief narrative beginning with a suicide attempt.  On September the 20th of 2011, I tried to kill myself.  I chased 30mg of Klonopin with a full bottle of Talisker 10yr Scotch.  I obviously failed at my attempt (cynical yayyy).  I was subsequently hospitalized for 5 days at an inpatient facility.  I was placed on a medical leave of absence by my medical school.  They required me to undergo a $5000 psych evaluation that November (I had to pay for the evaluation).  The medical school handpicked the place where I was to be evaluated and made sure those evaluating me knew that the medical school did not want me to return.  Thus, this official looking evaluation center put together a completely biased report and the medical school has since placed me on a one year leave of absence.  All that kept them from kicking me out was a letter and phone conversation with a psychologist I have been seeing describing the ridiculous nature of the report.  The medical school administrators sensing they could have legal action brought against them have decided not to immediately dismiss me, but rather put as many obstacles in my path as possible so that I quit of my own accord.  I have since been trying to get a job in the health care arena, but have been unsuccessful because I almost every job in the health care field requires some sort of certification.  So, I am shit out of luck.  I have now resorted to pursuing employment at Home Depot, Lowes, etc.

Those are most of the facts.  It may also be worth noting that I am married and have a two year old son.

I am extremely bitter towards the medical school at this point as they have shown little if any support or sympathy towards me.  There is one dean who has taken a personal interest in me and that is all.  Everyone else takes days to respond to any phone call or e-mail I direct at them.  The medical school has put forth zero effort in helping me to pay for the psychiatric care they have mandated that I seek and maintain.  They have also provided zero help as far as assisting me in getting a job in the interim.  They are fully aware I have a two year old son.  Just so everyone knows and is aware I attend the University of Tennessee's medical school.  I am not going to post anything inflammatory or libelous, but rather just the facts.  The facts will speak for themselves and illustrate the complete lack of concern this university shows it's students.

I am at the point now where I am trying to do everything in my power to return to medical school.  I have taken every test there is to take and I have like 5 more months worth of pass/fail clinical rotations to complete before I am eligible to graduate.  That's all I feel like posting right now.